ah chou

2010-12-07T10:48:00.000-08:00

After so long i think it already not mine i should let go le... your face your smile the good u treated me the care u gave me all i can feel it. Maybe i don't know how to cherish it and maybe u ever though of i took it for granted but i can tell u i'm not it just i don't know how to show it to u... Anyway it doesn't matter anymore it's not important anymore. it already over, it will nv be the same like it was before. i will keep u in the bottom of my heart. Don't think wrongly i keep it is because it can remind me i had a caring and responsible girlfriend once before. i have no regret that i had love u once before. take good care of yourself.

2010-11-28T20:59:00.001-08:00

hoho. did i miss to post long ago? haha i think so. its been so long that i had not posting anything i almost forgot about my blog le... nvm its ok anyway i still have got contact u guys mah hees. now nth to do came and post something bah. i just only came back to sg few days ago. I went to china for holiday haha. 8days of holiday over there almost become a china ppl liao. They are not so behind us already. They are becoming like us too le. all high buildings their changes is really fast like omg! but still a dirty country!!! they go till where spilt till where even the police also do so zzz. although their place changes alot but there is nth to play about all is just history history history =.='''. So for my info dun go china for holiday ^-^ unless u love history HAHA!

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2010-08-31T15:58:00.001-07:00

Looks like it's rotting already haha. Almost forgot about i have got a blog haha. Was too busy till i forget le. What i am busy about? hmm i din work at Taste Of thaiLand anymore but currently working at my father work place haha. Helping my father work i had more times to hang out with friends if not i really no life. Now i went back to normal life le lo hohoho went back to the past could play basketball, go out with friends all. It will be more better bah. :P

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2010-07-10T00:56:00.000-07:00

Now currently working but resting now going finish work le haha. This few days i've been meeting my good

MEI MEI “

ANG

HUI TIAN”

haha after work nothing to do so went to meet her sometime meet wei wei mei mei also haha. I am bored really bored

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2010-07-06T07:32:00.000-07:00

So long I have not been posting le. Cause I duno what to post about. Nothing to post about never mind I wanted to upload photo also cannot cause no one want to take photo with me so I have no photo to upload haha. Now I feel I became like strangers to my friends le, cause I've been working or staying at home never go out at all. Hmm I very tired le really tired. Although it's tired but I know this is what I am gonna get in my life sooner or later so it's the same for me to have it now rather then next time when i have it, by the time it would be more tough for me le. So I must get use to it now^.^ . I am now waiting for my mei mei Tze wei to come down haha.

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2010-06-22T18:50:00.000-07:00

Morning guys^^ so long never post le wakakaka i am busy? yes i dam busy playing games lor cause i have nothing to do and i don feel like going out so stay at home play games. My birthday just passed 1 week ago though have no one celebrate with me that day but there is a mirical all called me when after my work to help me celebrate! was so touch and happy on that day this year is my second time having a cake le haha last time first time i had my cakes from my friends is from my YAQI MEI and SHEENA SENG haha. This year not same ohh from alot of ppl i don't know got who either lols just feel very touch and happy jiu shi le. Hope this will continue within me every year. My wish din appear hmmms on that day she went overseas but she sented a advance happy birthday msg haha was so happy to see that but she was not in singapore after i saw that msg. She already went overseas le it was too late. anyway thanks all my fellow friends and gans

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2010-06-02T00:17:00.000-07:00

The mirical appears i am here again^^ guys how have your been? think missing me right lols. BHB!. ya i know i am. Hmm wad should i post ner? sry i just woke up can't think much. 3.17pm. Hmm hey girl not that i because of those game dun 1 contact u anymore is because i duno how to face u, actually i though i had already forgotten her but yet haven yet i think i was just using you to cover her but yet can't also i'm really sorry about it. How i wish i could forget her easily but i can't. Dam freaking usless, but i am really happy to had a relationship in the past like this before i am really happy to have that le. Thanks for giving me the chance last time although not now i know you are reaching for a more well known more caring bf am i right? Ya i think you found already i am not fit to be yours but just hope you won't forget that u had a relationship with me before i really appciate it thanks alot. This goes out to someone that was once the most important person in my life i didnt realise it at the time i can't forgive myself for the way i treated you. . . Sorry

2010-05-23T12:21:00.000-07:00

Hi all hahas. . . ya i am back to taste of thailand to work le will not be free in the afternoon till night time. only after 10.15 i will be free haha. My work there have a cat just give birth 3 kitty that was really really DAM small!! omg but they got catch away le there de ppl call duno who come catch them go check up haha. won coming back le. that cat really good de cat now no cat pei me play when i am moody and lonely le sigh. Hope i will get better soon ohh hehes. CHEER ME UP PLS.

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2010-05-14T14:39:00.000-07:00

hehehe. All relax abit la when it's time for me to update i will de. 5.45am le i am still awake nothing to do just full of stuff in my mind going through again and again. It would never stop ending till there is a mirical appear to help me^.^ haha hope there it is. But i know for sure it will have de just the time is not right yet. This road i had choosen i will go for it no turning back thanks all my good friends and mei mei for peiing me all time being very greatfull to your. Ohh ya "SOON LEE DON'T BE SAD ALRIGHT NO MORE GF U STILL HAVE US THIS KIND OF GOOD FRIEND U ARE IN THE SAME ROAD WITH ME NOW. NOW U KNOW HOW BAD ARE GIRLS ALREADY? ALL THE BLAMES IS NOT TOTALLY IN GUYS BUT THEY TOTALLY BLAME IT ALL ON US!!! THIS IS NOT FAIR OK SIGH U KNOW I SEE U LIKE THAT IT REALLY REMIND ME EVERYTHING WHY WOULD IT END UP IN THIS WAY I REALLY DUN WANT TO END UP LIKE THIS".

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2010-05-04T07:23:00.000-07:00

haaa so long never post le. . . hehes. Just came back from working hmm ya i went back to taste of thailand to work le C: so happy that i could go back there work is a miracle i think so haha. Hope that there is more miracle coming up next in my life and no more sadness C: i'll do my part in the rest of my life ohh. Cannot play le it's time to think for the road i need to walk through and prepare of anything to happen. My dentelde letter came le woot so happy but in it they din tell me when the date my coming up appointment is!! Because of this i had to save alot of money liao haha. My friends if your next time is free in the afternoon please call me up and meet me haha i always stay at home is really very boring. AND YA TML I OFF YIPPY YEA!!!

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2010-04-15T03:17:00.000-07:00

hmmms everyday raining raining and raining why rain? i most hate is this kind of weather not because i cannot go out play or wad. Y god had to treat me like this make me sad make me think makes me cry!!! sigh i've been staying at home for 3days le not going out no ppl to meet and dun have friends. . just have a few friends but not everytime can meet them cause they have their own things to do. . . But anyway i also quite happy with my life now no more bad friends and have new and good friends learn more good things from them. . . i really hope that i can really forget the past and have a fresh start again but i couldn't really couldn't. . . no one could cover it no one. . .

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2010-04-13T02:35:00.000-07:00

April 13 raining heavily and i am rotting at home no ppl to meet at all! working de all working at camp de all at camp schooling de all schooling left me over-.-''' no chioce have to stay at home. stay at home never mind somemore still RAINING HEAVILY! this kind of rain Remembers me alot of moments i had before in the past sigh. nvm stay at home rot nvm at least i learn to be lonely i not someone who can't stand lonelyness. Second day le wakakaka at home + no cigg this is good i like. . .

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2010-04-03T09:31:00.001-07:00

Just came back from wedding dinner^^ its was my cousin wedding finally he found his future le see them so lovely haha so envi them>.< i know my turn will come one day haha. . . there is so boring cause all the people i dono-.-''' i am not close with my that cousin at all cause is my father side de cousin never even sms meet or chat at all lols. It was to tiring i drank quite alot but i stop within my limits. Today when working i almost fall down from the ladder cause my leg is really dam no strength it's about 2 days le still like that and really pain with it but i today still went to work but i went home early hehe. . cause i can't stand the pain liao need keep on walking and walking so i went home early tml and monday i off wakakaka i dun 1 work is because i wan to rest now let my leg have a good rest after that i planed to go back chiong again like use before haha!! i can't bare to leaves there cause i have a very good china friend down there and he don't wish me to quit this job haha cause he very lonely down there he don't have such a good and kind friend at there but only me. If i left he sure dam lonely and sad de so i think i won't be leaving there so soon bah. hope my leg will get well soon^^

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2010-04-01T23:55:00.000-07:00

hmm just wake up not long ago ytd almost use up all my energy almost going to die but i dun care so much ytd morning i went to doctor appointment with li hua, hui ting and jonathan they pei me go there haha so touch after that we went to orchard and walk for awhile cause hui ting having an interview at 3pm so we walk and walked till 3pm and pei her go interview, after interview we went back to kahtib and play basketball. We started play at around 5 but jonathan and hui ting went back at 6+ i think so i and li hua continue play and alex came down after that alot more came down and i play till 9+ till i really cannot take it anymore too tired le den i go home. After bathing i was preparing to on comp and use comp chao zhong called me as me wan go running mah? So i asked him run to where he said jalang ka u its was like OMG i told him even me can't run till there he said he can so i said ok lor. He wented to ah lai house take things and i went to meet shuping to have supper after that he came to find me and shuping went home we jiu start to run le. I told tze wei jia jian they all that later he run till the yishun dam there sure say wan go back mah de in the end we really run till around there but further away he shouted my name cause he was far away from me haha he asked me wan go back mah i was like LOL haha den i say ok lor cause his destiny sure fail de lols he so long never run liao he wan run till there really siao liao he haha. Now today i woke up my leg totally no strength i cannot use too much strength anytime i will fall down ytd play basketball make till my leg den bleeding really dam pain but i have no ppl care at all. Sigh started to think back to the past again. .

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2010-03-29T20:58:00.001-07:00

Just came back from running not long ago just now running back i stop at 925 and i went to eat but the other 2 din eat both sitting down and look at me >.< so ps hahas. after that we walk back to 850 slack and chat awhile den jonathan said he wan to eat den i say ok lor so shuping went home den jonathan came to my house and sit awhile den we meet up again jiu go eat liao den i eat again -.- eat so much hahas but never mind i will continue to run and run and run and run till 1 day i falled and i won stand up anymore. Just now walking back home i drop my phone so heart pain sigh!!! first time drop nor i told myself cannot drop this phone but in the end i still dropped once kns. thats all hahas NIGHTSTALKER WHERE ARE U??!!??!!

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2010-03-29T06:17:00.000-07:00

Whoa how long i din post le oh i think quite long so sorry haha. . . but now i am here to post smth again liao hehe. i am just like the same normal me but change from the past le oh but just saying out from my mouth is showing it to alot ppl le ^.^

lol. dont know what to type. .

update ltr on.

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2010-03-18T13:04:00.000-07:00

2010-03-18T12:58:00.001-07:00

yoyo friends din post for days le hahas i am here again anyway anyone knows where my NIGHTSTALKER goes to how come it din help me post for so long liao wakao! contact me soon ohh. Ytd went drinking again with von aka john and jerry^^ jerry was so happy ytd and he was drunk can't believe man hahas from the start i always though he was a good drinker but actually no! lols he's more losuyer den me. But i also drink till abit drunk all vomit in the car execpt me haha me but me reach my house downstair den start to vomit>.< really had a good day with my those friends its really very different after i have follow them to go out and play. . . really happy to know all this friends hehe. .

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2010-03-15T00:32:00.000-07:00

2010-03-15T00:18:00.000-07:00

Last thursday went to drinking at tanjiong paga hahas too stress and moody so when finish work friends jio me go drink and i accept their offer and go with them. That was my first time going there but there was a very friendly place i quite like there alot. hahas sian ytd night went to drink again with working friends again but this time round is i asked him out only 1 person hahas i and him were drink at 848 while we were drinking half way chao zhong came to find me and pei me drink hahas in the end we drink till 2+ den go home. i almost vomite>.< but heng did'nt in the end but when i reach home i din sleep i dun care about giddy all this i continue use comp but abit duno wad i am typing at the starting but after 1 hour later i am ok with it le but at that time i went to sleep liao lols. till 2 hour ago i just wake up but till now i still have nothing to do everyday stay at home wait to be rooten. wish i could go back to the past which i can meet jocelyn everyday really wish while everytime i was at this moment thinking of this i will start to cry again sigh i really duno wad i should do i. . . . one fine day i think your my friends going to sent me to hospital soon bah. i duno when i will fall really duno but i guess soon bah take care my friends.

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2010-03-13T06:03:00.000-08:00

Just came back home. . just now was at 219 playing basketball^^ so tiring go out by my own play by my own really feel relaxing this is wad i am finding from the starting i think i should like this more offen haha. Go around singapore and play with my own like this i won't be so stress feel more relaxable. . Sorry my mei not i wan like this, this is wad i wanted, but when its really over i will be back de so just wait for de day bah. but i think this need quite alot of time, we can meet up but not at there i won go there anymore. from today onwards my shadow over there its already been fly away le no matter wad i just wan to be happy i dun wan to have anymore sad or hard life. and i also wan her to be happy no matter wad no matter how. if she is in trouble and she find u for help just help her if u can alright take care my friends. And my best friend NIGHTSTALKER

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2010-03-10T09:01:00.000-08:00

XieXie ni NIGHTSTALKER for helping wo post this few days. i was so moody so boring this few days dun feel like updating now i came back to update liao hehe just came back from eating eat till very full hahas. This few days i can't stay at home nor really can't when i have nothing to do i will start thinking and keep on thinking -.-''' wad to do i also duno. wantd to stop thinking also cannot bo bian this makes me so chiao chui i have all this now is all because of my fault dam fuck up roar!!! this few days maomaochong ton at my house but i think i should not let him ton at my house in the first place lor cause his gf also come up den when i see them so close i will start thinking again wtf! anyway thanks my friends for so caring me but now i wanted to tell your sorry first this is wad i am gonna to say nothing much more i can say le just sorry my friends and espically u. u should know who i am talking bah. i'll update soon take care.

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2010-03-09T18:33:00.000-08:00

Hi EMOC NIGHTSTALKER was here to help u post again^.^ if i can see u have this face all day long and i could not see any this face :=( in your face i sure happy de everyday see u pull long face i also want become long face le. I know today u never go take your ibbt test cause its raining heavily in the morning and u waked up so early in the morning that now u had not enough sleep am i right kekes. Think now u are sleep bah am i right i don't know too. I am sure that u will get your new lifestyle soon oh, but i know its hard for u but u have to go for it just because of a girl?!?! u became like this? This not like the EMOC that i know oh i know de is very cheerfull and likes to joke around us de. But now? i have never seen your cheerfull face your jokes anymore i had never see u like this in the past why? Why this time u became like this. Maybe this time u had found your true love le bahh, but even is that so why in the first place u never go and cherish it? never give in all? never love her totally with your heart? Why u wan to give in everythings that u are not surpose to give in now? isn't it the wrong time? i know why u did not do all this in the past cause u always though that she is still at your side and she won't leave u right? So u never even care about it, now u get it le right? No matter whad in all your relationship u must give in your best cannot like this in the future le alright. This time i know u really had learn your lesson le, its good for u. I know this few weeks u had gone through alot of unhappy things. Slowly bah take your time whad u need now is time. Your best friend NIGHTSTALKER=)

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By NIGHTSTALKER

2010-03-09T07:15:00.001-08:00

NIGHTSTALKER was here again. Today he had change the name of his to EMOC. . Today i said that EMOC was going to take his ibbt test right. Ya. but he din go cause need to book first before you go and with is only on wed for the appointment so EMOC was going to run again. Before that he has gone for his training just now in the morning with MAOMAOCHONG, when he came back he told me he was very upsad with his timing he couldn't believe that he would run till that timing that he din exepcted at all but never mind i know tommrrow he can do even better den today de cause today is just a training EMOC JIAYOU OK!!! ALL THE BEST TO U. He told me alot of things today he went by some problems and he start again. Whad do i mean by that is every problems that he went by let him remember of jocelyn and him in the past he everytime have problems he would told me he is very wrong. He din think of how he had treated her in the past he just care for his own feeling he say she is right he din even care for her or care of her feeling at all. Now he's getting worst and worst ask him to go work he don wan ask him to sleep he don wan, well i don't know whad he wan either just when i sees him like this i also very sad for him. Just help him pray that he would get back jocelyn one day this time round i could really see the real face on him on relationship in the past i couldn't see all this when after he and his ex gf had broke off, just like normal. But this time round no matter how i see him act normal or act happy his face still tells me that he is really very tired le very low mood. So jocelyn if u have read till this passage i hope u would let him have a chance to say whadever whad he wanted to say or maybe even let him chance to show u that he did really love u. Maybe he din give in everythings like use to be before, But if u could give him this chance me NIGHTSTALKER promise u that u sure will be the most happiness person in your life i'll bet that u have not choosen the wrong person. I know u had given him quite alot of chance to change all this but he didn't i know all this. Cause that at that time u were still around him he never even wanted to care about it like in chinese DE CHUN JING ZI. By the part of his friend me NIGHTSTALKER help him say sorry to u. I am sorry jocelyn. Thats whad all i wanted to say from the bottem of my heart long ago. i will back here to post something again. .

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By NIGHTERSTALKER

2010-03-08T14:18:00.000-08:00

人非圣贤，孰能无过　知错能改，善莫大焉

意思是: 我们人一生都会犯错误重要的是你能认识错误和改正错误，从错误中明白道
理希望下一次不要犯同样的错误

意思是: 人非完人，谁也不能一辈子不犯任何错误。重要的是犯错以后能够及时改正，以后不要
再犯同样的错误。

2010-03-08T14:01:00.001-08:00

SUPERCHOU is going to take his ibbt test later!!! wahahaha how good would he get in it? hoohoo wait for his return and reply but someone is going with him to take his test which is MAOMAOCHONG! wakaka guest who THE FUCK IS HIM? price given if u are correct^^ Is this SUpErChOu cRaZy? i think could be? and now its already wad time?? OMG SUPERCHOU still haven sleep still going to take his ibbt test later on?!!!??? HE'S going to die there later wakaka. He told me that he cfm won die there sure come back home die at once LOL CUTE. . your maybe wondering wad the fuck am i talking right? wondering wad is ibbt test that i am keep saying let the NIGHTSTALKER tell u it is just like nafa test your always had in school hehe. . SuPeRcHoU said if he get silver when he go ns he can go in later 1 month earlier come out 2 month OMG IS IT REAL. . . ya i think so. . Now SUpErChOu is waiting MAOMAOCHONG to come to his house then go together Bye. . NIGHTSTALKER is going back to sleep already its morning i can't see the sunlight shine on it i'll be dead soon if i still don't want to go to sleep take care BYEBYE.

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2010-03-08T08:26:00.001-08:00

Just came back home. Just now at 850 talking with mei mei wang jian jasmine and lin feng dam boring on this days have nothing to do just sleep wake up watch tv or go out play basketball or at 850 chat awhile jiu come back home le hahas. actually i already know u have a new bf le so by all means bah. . still letting u know that i'll be there for u if u need me one day if i am still single:) off quite alot of day le tml duno going back work mah no more mood to work anymore sigh. . My life without you is really finish le just like 2012. I also duno is that called love or is just a xi guan but to me i can say that is really my love bah cause i have this feeling, too pain. . one day count one day bah its been 1month+ already and she have new bf already hai nvm la dun 1 talk about it le just live as i can bah take care my friends

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2010-03-06T19:22:00.000-08:00

Hmm just wake up not long ago. . . finally the funeral finished ytd and i finally could had a good rest le but i still din go to sleep after all those things. . cause my head is full of things i can't stop thinking!! make me so hard to sleep after the funeral i continue stay there and see them play majiong hahas this could make me no need to think but that makes them very gian pua LOL bangala already come keep all thoe table le they still majionging there dun 1 to leave i was laughing till omg hahas but in the end they also play dam fast and finish it after all they played 2 days of majiong only 2 person lose chai yang and chong wei most suay is chong wei haha play majiong lose to wj a total of $230 WA!! if i had the money i happy le i could buy so much things for her haha. Now cannot liao la but in the past i still can, now i had to go back work liao ohh so many days of off but ok la not i wan to take is because i go and help li hua bah can like this said so ton at the funeral for 3 days help him see if not he also can't tahan 3 days de. . later on going back to work again le ohh having a fresh start liao wakakaka. . . LUCIENO SUPERVISOUR IS GOING BACK TO WORK AND HE IS. . . . . . . . MR SUPERCHOU^^ the end

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2010-03-03T17:15:00.000-08:00

Hmm few days i din post le. . . getting alot of things into my mind thinking alot of things and have not been free for this time. . now i just came back home for posting^^ hahas just now was at li hua father funeral. . his father just past away two days ago ytd night went to accompany him for a night later on at evening going to accompany him again it was at 609. . his father was just still not so old just only 47 but when working half way had a heart attack. Like this jiu past away le. He was really regret that how he had treated his father in the past but now is really over le he can't go back to the past anymore. Because of this he had learn one thing and this also let me learn the same thing he had just learn somethings that is gone it will be gone forever it won come back again or go back to the past again. . In the past i really regret that how i had treated jocelyn too. . but now its over and just like him gone forever. . maybe god make this kind of way give me but its really a sad way and fate i am going this really makes me feel guilty and regret of wad i had done to. Sigh anyway this already too late le i can't go back to the past anymore. I know the god will let me have a fresh start bah after all this i think i am not going to make this mistake again le, i really had learn alot from it alot alot hmms. . but not because of this i am gonna to let go, this won't let me change the love from me to u alright it will be getting deeper and deeper cause of this lesson it teach me that not just only cherish i had to give in to every relationship i had to cherish and give in everything in all my relationship alright i really had to thanks to god really thank you. .

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2010-02-28T09:15:00.000-08:00

2010-02-28T09:04:00.001-08:00

Hi guys sry that i din post for days le. . . now i am posting again^^ Today when i woke up in the afternoon i jiu go meet up with my working friend le actually we was going to watch movie but his friend said wanted to go clark quey so i bring them go there walk nor. His friends said he wanted to go some places to take photo that really nice de cause he's going back to china in another 2-3 months time so i took them to the singapore river and singapore flyers to take photo after finish taking photo and we see the time its still early so we decide to go watch movie but they duno how to see english movie so we din see again so we go to the place that all things is those catching bears de which is at marina square when i saw that place i saw alot of images of the past when i was with jocelyn. And i started to think and think and think and became sad again sigh. In the past i really did wrong alot and mostly i all blame it on her i really duno wad the F was i thinking that time how could i treat a person that loves me alot and treat me dam well that i have never had before? i am really too stubborn, when in the past she keep saying me this i dun even care about it but now i think back i think i am wrong le. . . now i can feel that she dun have feelings on me anymore really no more i lost le i really lost le. Too late now. No matter wad i will always keep it in my heart (sa lang hey yo)

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2010-02-25T08:04:00.000-08:00

Tml going check up le omg sigh. . . so soon but after check up i going back to work too cause tml is store wide have 20% off for most of the things lets say it everything. But then tml aunty din have enough ppl to work she need 2 ppl work in the morning and 2 ppl work in the afternoon. In the afternoon pearlina first day come work den till night 11 den finish somemore is store wide at night she is the one only left there sure very jialat de so i think i after check up i go back and help her and aunty bah. . haha aunty dun have me working really jialat duno going to call who go work. But actually i am really tired le but if i stay at home i also have nothing to do so i think i go work bahs hahas work more get more money mah if nv work how i buy things for her? so i must work hard learn more. . . when i working i also can learn gees ok la take care my friends. .

You are Loved and Missed

2010-02-24T07:16:00.001-08:00

YEA TODAY FINALLY GET MY FIRST PAY^^ but think they give less i haven counted it but going to count soon waiting for mei to help me count cause my paper was with her. . later on maybe going to work full shif again>.< if aunty called later on but i think mostly dun have bah cause now so late le she nv call me. . so think working afternoon tml haha working till 9.30pm again that was so late but nvm la now also never meet ppl and never go down 850 le so its ok. . all the time being i was at home. . feel the home sweet home haha suddenly like this feel like something strange just like when she's gone from my side till now i still feeling so strange sigh. . . . COME ON MAN. . my mei mei when are u going back to work!!! u know how lonely am i mah. . . i already been so lonely for weeks le now u still wan to ps me working myself sigh. . i now everytime working i was like so zi bi really cause i had no 1 to talk to just only my good china friend jerry. Not everytime i can talk with him cause sometime he's also have off day and i really bored!!! Was there anyone for me to chat with?? to play with?? and for me to pei with?? YES but it was the past not now, now have nothing . . 你是我的一切你知不知道?

You are Loved and Missed

2010-02-23T09:36:00.001-08:00

2010-02-23T09:27:00.000-08:00

hmmm now adays working i became more and more boring le cause mei mei and slyvia like nv come to work le no 1 to chat with and no 1 to play with just stand there by myself i look at mirror and mirror look at me hahas. Ytd is the 3rd day aunty asked me to work full shif le but heng today she din ask me haha so later on i going to work at 1.30pm hope later on not so many ppl come and buy shoe roar normal customer come jiu ok le i dun 1 those ask u take 10pair of shoes den all dun 1 buy like this i really wan to slap e customer LOL. Just kidding la i also can't slap, slap le i am gonna lose my job i dun 1 to lose my job just because of this. No matter wad i also must smile infront of the customer mah till they go den talk behind them>.< Tml who's going to work?? again only me my both mei mei all nv work duno weather slyvia working mah if working good i have ppl to chat with le ohh haha. . . hope i would always like this today 23/2/2010. . . her birthday is coming by actually though of buying another phone for her de but if this time i buy i think she really won accept it anymore le bah. . i can feel wad she is feeling and i know i won stand a chance anymoe so be it lor. . its fate if its mine den it gonna be mine but if its not no matter how i pull through all those days it still will go away from me just i am gonna to lose it sonner or later. wish now when i working still have more ppl to chat with make me dun keep on thinking and thinking. . .

2010-02-22T08:37:00.001-08:00

Actually when i first hear that she had a new person in her heart i was really upsad she really could give up so easily in this relationship is it really that i am really nothing to her anymore she could give me up so easily? i really can't how hard i had tried le also can't so i intend not to give up from that time i had tried and tried and tried and fail and fail. Cause i know that she is really the 1. In the past i could really easy to forget her before and forget other ppl but this time not same anymore i can't forget her at all!!! already locked too deeply and i have no way to unlock it. hope she can really consider again, let this 7month of relationship alive again but the story line is going to change if she could let this 7month of relationship alive. . . hope so. I am really tired really very tired le i just can't stop thinking while i was working and its was not for few hours only is 10hours everymin everysec u were in my mind wad to do? i also duno just let it be bah. . . i know its my wrong from the start i know i can't say anythings but i really hope so. I am working full ship tml again but this time not same le is i one person standing by myself its really gonna be really tiring and boring dun even have the mood to work but aunty keep on ask me to work and work and work i think i gonna can't take it anymore or sooner if she continue like this i duno how le but i do really like this job. hmmms no friends no girlfriends all gone from my side but heng i still have my job with me if not i really dunno wad am i going to do le. ok la i'll stop here alright take cares everyone if your see her was in trouble pls go and help her or give me a call thanks

You are Loved and Missed

2010-02-20T09:06:00.001-08:00

i just came back from work so tiring lor haha i worked till 11pm>.<> dam dam dam wrong i had never cherish her at that time when now i think back. Why in the past i won like this think like now? Wad a stubborn person am i? maybe in the past i really dun really cares, worry or how important is the relationship is to me when its gone from me den i started to think of it y everytime had to be like this? god really bu gong ping to me. But now i have to be muture. its my fault from the starting i know i really know so i had to think of way to change it to show it to you. but maybe your think that i just saying it or typing it with my mouth and hands your are wrong your had to give me this first and the last time to show it to your and U JOCELYN U GET IT. i know i had hurt u enough of it i know u dun wan to get this back again and again but until i had lost u i really though of it really though of it i know i really could do it this time round not could is sure i am very sure i know you wan de is two person de things add together but u only can choose 1 u have to believe in yourself and go for it, its your happiness but dun regret after u had choose it alright?

You are Loved and Missed

2010-02-17T11:02:00.000-08:00

hmm . later on i off no working but no ppl to meet with usually have early in the morning but now no more very weird and i really dun like it sigh. . wish it could go back to the past just now alex jio us to ride bicycle but in the end we have no bicycle nv ride but nvm la i just reach home just now ann and cw at my house using comp. . i know i really had hurt u alot but this time could u give me this chance to let u know of caring and love mah? can i? i really dun 1 to be like this and like the past before i wan to change everything every single thing i really have gone everything le even maybe my friends i gona lost they all soon really soon jocelyn would u come back to me and i promise wad i will do wad just need u to trust me this time i promise i won hurt u anymore anymore!!! i wan to get back everythings it belong to me can!!??!! PLEASE

2010-02-16T06:50:00.000-08:00

YoYoYo!! few days nv post le ohh. . . too boring this few days no date on cny no friend to meet dun feel like using comp just stay at home doing nothing. . . just making myself very tired tired tired and dun sleep. But on cny got one friends always on myside with me haha really thanks to her and its my mei chrislin. . she also dun have ppl to meet too gees so i meeted her and slack around near my house. Ytd night after gambling at 850 me chrislin pei rong ah da and my bro we went drinking at yishun dam actually i dun 1 go de. . . but i just dun 1 to think so much of it den i go with them de but the next day i have work lols. . . so we go there at around 1am+ and we started to drink haha my bro bring his XO haha. Play cards loser drink and i am the suay 1 keep on 1 person lose to 4 person drink 4 person de xo!!!!! roar but its ok la cause its making me faster to drunk so i won think so much. . in the end i really get quite drunked at around 5+ to 6 so i went to ah da car and lie down awhile and i sleeped at 6+ and they wake me up at 7+ and fetch me home. . . in the end my brother vomit hahas lousy drinker lols so when i reach home its 7+ - 8 so i faster go sleep and i din know that i could woke up at 9.30 and prepare to go work omg!!! when i was walking to mrt station i can't even walk propertly walk like a crap haha. . . i was dem seh dam tired but i dun care just go for work bah. . . when i reach my work place there have lion dance but i have no mood to see dam tired and seh customer come i also nv care lols but after 3-4 hour i feel better le cause the seh gone.. till now i still haven sleep-.-''' i wan to be more tired!!! i wan to see when i can't take it and i will be hospitalise wakakaka. . . i think soon bah cause i know i going to down soon i know my body well. . . ok la i dun 1 type le take care friends.

You are Loved and Missed

2010-02-13T10:31:00.000-08:00

I am back home to post somthing again hahas, just now was at my grandmother house when i finish work at 5. At grandmother house till around 7+ i jiu go back 850 to find my another side de ahma hahas. . but after awhile i was too boring le no ppl to meet sigh. . wad to do? nothing just go downstairs see weather have any ppl around mah. . . but it was really lucky to see chong wei. . heng have someone to pei me chat with haha. While chatting i am waiting my parents to call me to go home but till 11+ they din call and at that time wang jian they all also at 850 they said they going chambers so i din go home and i wait all to reach but in the end ang yun come out stun jitao go home and ling feng say on his way but in the end also never come down so in the end we din go chambers. . so we contiune sitting at 850. till 12+ wei jun and zhi yao came down they say they going eat so we went together and eat. . after finish eating we went to 850 gamble! haha. . and that time pei rong came down too lols. . so we gamble gamble till around 2 i jiu go home le till now so tired man but missing soneone else in my heart. . today no date sigh. . just to be alone. . maybe its fate bah. just now at work i almost got hitted by glasses cause when i taking shoe i moving the ladder and the ladder was so high and beside i din saw the wall was low and have light over there no like small small de is long long de and i hit it it drop infront of me and a birthday girl just infront on me and her i was scare dao lor she birthday kana all this really suay. . so worry about it if really hit her i will be nei jiu one lor. . but heng nv hit anyone of us haha. . . oneday over again le its still the same me. .

You are Loved and Missed

2010-02-12T07:11:00.000-08:00

Sad day. . . ytd isaac called me to go chambers with him and he talk to me with a very stress and angry way, cause he and his girlfriend have abit of problem. . Cause his girlfriend suddenly treat him dam cold. . Isaac ask suppost to sent her to school in the morning but he was sick and he was sleeping at home so he din went to fetch her girlfriend to school and he was not awake at the time being so he din notice about it. . when he woke up he msg her girlfriend told her he was sick but her girlfriend was just like hack care but isaac din mind of that and he still continue to talk nicely to his girlfriend but his girlfriend was getting worst and worst. . and isaac get agitated so he became to the wolf haha. . and he ask his girlfriend today can meet his girlfriend said not time, then he asked sat can? she said can't den his girlfriend said wait after 4 years past le if he still loves her then contact her and isaac was like HUH!? what is she thinking and talking about den after that his girlfriend din reply or pick up his msg and call le. . So he called me asked me wan go chambers mah. . actually i dun 1 go de just cause i see him so emo so stress, angry and sad so i accepted his offer lor. . . so we went and play till 3am jiu go home le but my house door was lock so i went to his house to sleep till morning 8.30 woke up and i tell him that i had no money to go work he say nvm he lent me his credit card i said ok but when i took the taxi to my workplace the card can't use!!! i was like omg. . and i really had no money but heng before i took the taxi i go home took some money but still not enough for the taxi fare. But heng the uncle good he asked me have how much i jiu give him how much jiu can go le haha. . but when i working my break time i had no money to eat-.-''' but this time i was heng again i have a china friends that i am very good with him de he lented me money to eat hehes. . i am going to pay him back when i got my pay >.< then after that i was thinking how would i go back to kahtib cause i had no money to go back anymore even my mrt card also no money. . but den heng again my GOOD MEI come to my workplace and pass me money counted as return me money haha. . but one things i was angry about today is aunty asked me to work fullshif some more tell me at the time when i was going to finish working, i am angry is because everytime she can't work she will ask me to help help help she will never ask my cousin all this. . dam sucks lor. but i still helped her work till 7pm den i went off. So after going off i went to bugis with my GOOD MEI and pei zhuang to buy their new years things. . while we were walking i saw a person guess is who? is her brother. . . when i walk towards him he asked me where her sister? and i really duno how to anwer him. . so i said duno and i told him i go off le den i jiu walk off le. . sigh. . . really miss her alot alot alot alot alot, this few days i din contact her is because i dun 1 her to feel that i am irrating. . although i din contact her but my heart will always be with her no matter wad happens. If this time she really would give me the chance again. . i also scare to go back again cause i really scare to hurt her once again. . but if can i would really give in my best i won't give her anymore stress anymore problem anymore violent but sure will always happy and letted her remember all the happy moments haha. . . ok la dun 1 type le. . this is my 6th day quitting smoking le wakakaka JY

You are Loved and Missed

2010-02-10T05:53:00.000-08:00

hmm i am here to post something before i go sleep. . today i was too tired today>.< ytd went chambers with isaac, chong wei, ang yun and cucumber hahas. . we was there from 12am to 8am. . i will go and play is cause i today no work no ppl to meet with. . so i went to play. . but last time if i have ppl to meet have work i still will go play but now different le oh. . i dun 1 to be like this anymore cause of not enough of sleep it makes me lost my future. . it will make me lost is cause of my temper and attitude when i had not enough sleep or never sleep. . i have learn this le. hmm ok so i went back at 8am and sleep and i woke up at around 1pm and i was thinking y would i woke up so early is cause in the past i use to sleep at morning and wake up at around that time to meet ppl means i already use to it already but nvm so i was too bored and trying to find things to do. . so i think of go shopping den go find wei they all. . so i went to find friends to pei me go but there's no 1 so i went down to 850 see weather anyone was there so i could slack with them and i went down i saw wang jian, miao hui and chun wei. . so i asked them weather wan go orchard or city hall with me mah? only miao hui said ok others not going. So after that i went orchard with miao hui and we shopping but just nice when we reach there it was wei break time so we went go meet her first and chat. Chat and chat we chatted 1 hour haha after 1 hour she went back to work so i and miao hui go walk around see weather is there anythings i like or i wanted to buy. So i walk and walk and i see into a shop which is levis shop and i saw a jeans so i went in and check it out. . but in the end i walk out of the shop y cause i wan to look around so that i won regret if i bought it. so we walked alot of places in the end i went back to see the jeans again haha so i asked for my size and i tried i really like it alot so i decided to buy it but when i see the price lols it was omg cause i dun have enough money i only have 90+ and the jeans was at 149.90 so i asked miao hui weather can lent me $60 and he lented to me haha really thanks him alot. After buying we go back to kahtib i told him i wan to tamp my jeans and we went to the shop i told the aunty this and that in the end she told me $14 dollar so i lented from miao hui again and this time he took out $20 haha. . he's really a kind friend i had so i told him when i get my pay i will return him asap. And like this 1 fine day had pass through again. . Today is the 5th day i not smoking le ohh JY chou i know u can de wakakas

You are Loved and Missed

2010-02-09T06:57:00.000-08:00

Yeah, finally one day go pass again. . today late for work again -.-''' always late for work when she's not by my side cause no 1 morning call or msg me in the morning sigh. . . Just now went to work when i reach there i was like wow. . . the shoes on the floor was full over 800 boxes. . but nvm heng got a new ppl came and i not so busy hahas. . In the afternoon heng tze wei mei, chrislin mei, and slyvia came to work if not i think i am going to board to death down there. . When break time me wei, slyvia and a china guy called jerry which is my very close friends went to eat together haha. . everyday just eat the same old things but no chioce there cheap other place exp!! cannot go other place to eat lols. . . after finish eating we went back to work again. the new promoter from my department said she had an appointment to see a doctor so she went off at 6 if not she go off at 7 so i took over her i help her out till 7 but after 7 i went to punch card le jiu go down wait tze wei, chrislin, and slyvia to finish work and go home together so i waited till 9pm but the time while i waiting the time past really fast cause i keep help them take their shoes cause they wan to buy shoe and at that time there was no customer so they tried this and there just like jokers running around hahas so the time goes really fast. . So after that we went home together. .

Today she din reply even one of my msg sigh. . i think friend also no need to be anymore le bah this dun looks like friends anyway so be it ok. . anyway i also dun 1 to be friends^^ your know wad i wan to be jiu okays lerhs. ohh ya few days ago while i working while i was taking a pair of shoes and was high so i climb up and took the shoes and it was quite high of it and i din stand propertly my leg slip off and i fell heng i am still ok with it but i twisted my right wrist now really pain can't move much with that wrist. . but its ok la. . it will recover after a period of time. . i had lost it.

Your are Loved and Missed

2010-02-08T05:13:00.000-08:00

I'll be waiting for u to wear this shirt with me. . i'll wait till the day come. . Today i nv go work cause in the morning i wake up early in the morning at around 7.30 i bath le go buy breakfast and go her house and wait her wake up. . Actually i dun have the guts to go in her house de but just because i just hack care le i just go in call uncle jiu go in her room and wait her wake up le. She woke up at around 9 cause she is meeting her sister at around 10am. . so after she woke up she go bath all this after finish bathing i asked her to eat some of eat and she did really eat i was very happy about it hahas. . after that jiu wait for her sister to msg or call her when she is ready, so i and her waited the call/msg to come. When her sister was ready we jiu went down and wait the buses while waiting she asked me to go home but i dun 1 i said can't i go with her? she said can't but i nv care about it den i said i wan go with her she said cannot again den i dun care. After a few second she use a different kind of attitude and talk to me loudly and said I AM IRRATING. . at that time i was really sad and feel like crying but i just keep it to my heart and i said ok i go off le. After i go her bus came. . although i din get up the bus with her but i took taxi go down blk 928 cause i know she was going there to cut and perm her hair so i went there and i bought a rose and wait for her to be done. . So i waited fom around 10.40 - 12.40 and she was done when she was inside her sis was helping me on that too i am really thankfull to her although din suscess. . When she came out i was talking to raymond asking him how should i do wad should i say? and he told me alot of things so i bring up my guards and walk towards her and tell her that (i am sorry for the past the violent that i had give her those stupid things i had made maybe u dun trust me animore but we can made a rules and regulation but she said not about not trusting me or wad is she said she dun 1 to go into a relationship now. . But anyway i know is because she dun 1 to get anymore hurt from me anymore . . its ok when u are ready and i am ready let me show u that wad i had done to myself and i'll wait u to accept me again. . 3rd day not smoking le JY i know i can do it de hehes

You are Loved and Missed

2010-02-07T13:21:00.001-08:00

Ytd night sleep too early le now wake up too early too hmms. . .
mei if really is like this i also wish i could make it as wad you had said its because i can't forget and give up every single things and i think there is really a last hope for me to cherish everythings. . Your sometimes asked me to go on with myself and forget her i really can't guys your really duno how much she had took my heart your wan to know that? she took all over the place at my heart no more other place for me to put anythings your got that? This means please dun ask me to give up anymore. I really wish to get this chance to show her this time wad i had change for her and wad i will change for her to let her feel thats not same from the past. . i am working very hard now really hard. . i hope that in the end she will give still fully trust me again and i won harm her again this time le no more le. No harming no meaning just i love u. . And ya valentine's days it coming by le this time i am alone again i though i would cleabrate with her that time but i nv though of when the time is coming she was gone from my side i dun 1 like this i hope on that days or even when tml i woke up it would be a nice day like the past when i woke up i would see all those msg. . i dun 1 to go alone on that day really dun 1. . If i could really get back u i really dun care anythings le wad sacrifice i will also go for it de. . how much pain how much it worth this time no 1 can stop me alright cause she is my future!!!

2010-02-07T05:53:00.000-08:00

This memorys will always kept with me till you are back that day. . i love you

2010-02-07T05:39:00.000-08:00

wads new about today?

i just feel more comfortable when ytd i told her those things that i wanted to say out from my heart to let her know but i know she can't belive me at all, that is ok cause i know she needs time cause i have said it alot of times to her again and again and nothing has shown to her. Joce i am sorry about that that time i could'nt promise u somethings is cause i know i can't do it. This time i could all promise u ALL cause i know i will do it now. i really dun like that feeling that i had lost u, u not beside of me, and nv contact me ask me to meet up. I wish this would change when the time is up i wan to go back to the past have all this call me up to meet always by my side and the caring from u. . Now this time i could really show her 1 things that i had promise before and i din do it, but now i had did it i really quit smoking already its been 2 days i have not been smoking. . i will jiayou de. . support me okays. . i won giving up on you is because i have alot of me and your memorys in my hand really too much all my house thingy it reminds me of you. . hahas. although it makes me sad but i am really happy that i am with u in the past i could'nt accept wad i did to u at the past i really can't i would say it now is all because of yeo chao zhong and chong tze wei from the past already told me somethings about i and your relationship and i din care about it but now they told me again, den i start to think and think. i am really a basterd, i had never think for you before i only think for myself i know it now. . . all the memorys will always keep with me till you are back and i will give in and as well as give u the most beautifull memorys u ever have before i promise. . .

Its been 7days le You are still Loved and Missed every min every sec and everyday of yourlife.

2010-02-06T09:44:00.001-08:00

hi my fello friends, bro and mei i and here to post again :)

Today morning i woke up at around 11+ after awhile isaac called me and ask me weather wan to go chambers mah but den actually i din wanted to go de just he said pei him for awhile den i go de so i took taxi go down to chambers and play with him and chong wei so we played and played for around 2 hours later ah heng called isaac asked him to help him on something. So we stop the comp and make the payment. After payment isaac jiu go off and meet ah heng le so i and chong wei at 4+ slacked at 700+ till around 6+ isaac came back and fetch us and he asking where i wanted to drop off i said anywhere. . cause i have no places to go but in the end he dropped me off at the bus stop below the bridge at kahtib mrt and i walked to 850. After i slack awhile i meet yaqi mei and share my past things sadness with her although she can't do anythings but at least she hear finish that wad i had said so its ok. . afther that i told her i would like to go to a place and she asked where? But i said i would go to the place by myself. Guess where is the place? its her house downstairs. . So after that yaqi mei go and meet us with her friends and i went to her house downstairs and waited her come back home. . When it was around 9pm i was sitting down there waiting le. i was thinking how many wrong i had done and i go buy some chocolate which she likes it alot and is 1 wrong 1 packet so i bought a total of 5 packet and waited her there. But i kept on waiting and waiting 9 - 10 she still din came back yet so i continue to wait 10 - 11 but she still din came back and i was thinking weather she already at home le mah but i duno so i still kept on waiting till 12.40 and i go around see weather she came back already? and i really saw her!! when the first moment i saw her i was very sad and jealous cause i saw alvin which last time use to jio her when i was jioing her around 7months ago!!! i was very angry sad and jealous and i feel to whack him but i told myself no point really no point so i stopped it and walk to her and told her wad wrong i have done asked her to forgive me 1 by 1 i said i gave the chocolate and till the 5th 1 i put at her house outside. . but walked half way i already told her all my fault everythings and she was very claim for a min after the min she told me ( wad i have made in my mind i won change it ) i know she can't trust me anymore cause from the past i had said so many times to her and i din to it. . but now is not the same anymore i have done 1 of it and show it to her but she haven see it yet cause she did'nt wan to trust me anymore. I know its really hard for you to trust me again and again but i really hope u can stay claim and think it again and again or maybe just once? if i am wrong again lets not be friends and don contact each other anymore. . if i kept on bluffing u again and again i rather i really have never know u before u know mah jocelyn although this 7months i have treat u badly but i also have treat u well before u really can forget and just let it go so easily? really can? i really dun believe that cause i can see that u really love me just u dun 1 to get disappointed again. Alright u hmm u really is the first person that makes me become like this i have never been so sad jealous angry before and i had nv been waiting a person for so long before i also duno how i could waited for so long jocelyn i wan u to remember this

you are loved and missed my love to u will never change

2010-02-05T10:48:00.001-08:00

halo all!! just came back home hahas. posting again

just came back from chalet o.O today work till dam no mood work and think the whole noon dam tired of it but i can't stop thinking of it sigh. . wad to do? just let it be hmms. . After work i go to isaac chalet just too boring gi home also nothing to do so i go there for fun cause no body to meet up to last time use to meet up the same person everytime after work but now can't anymore. I wish i now could same like the past can meet up everyday, last time i still say her like supergule but now i think back actually is not it is good that she is supergule more stick more good hahas. . but now i have no more of it at my side anymore. . so everytime now after work i just wait for friend to finish work, go home use comp or go chao zhong house use comp ton at his house. Never go down 850 anymore just walk pass. . i dun 1 to go down anymore either. . i really give in my heart to change everything but of cause never change the heart that i have to give her haha. . Tml off duno wad to do also sigh just have to stay at home watch tv? i have abandone dota anymore so dun ask me weather i playing dota ma? my answer is very less le. So if your anyone is free can call me and and meet up hahas.

You are Loved and Missed

2010-02-04T08:50:00.000-08:00

halo i am here to post again

now at yeo chao zhong house today ton at his house. . just now in the afternoon i finish work at 3pm jiu go amk hq le to report about last time my bicycle case now the case is close le, after that i go down 850 meet chao zhong but he was in friends house den i saw yaqi mei so i asked her where she go and she said tpy. So i go with her she bought a gucci bag haha. . she wasted so much money nor. after that we meet belle go paragon find wei mei and lin mei they all haha. . went shopping with them was fun but not as fun as i was with her today walked alot of place that i and her had walk before not long ago when i walk pass it remind mi alot of things about her and i became emo and sad sigh. . wish i could go shopping and holding her hand agains i really regret i can't forget her at all. . i am really fuck up. .

2010-02-03T07:19:00.000-08:00

u have left out alot of things behind that makes me remember of u and keep thinking of u. . i really hope u could give me a very last chance to get a fresh start again and i will promise it will nv happen like the past before. . i am really regret that i din chase out to go with u. . just because of 1 thing i had lost everything. i really love u alot. . my dear sigh. . . . . .

2010-02-03T03:36:00.000-08:00

hi guys i am here to post again. .

mei really thanks that u had tell me so much about it from the past till now. . think back the past i am really in a big wrong. . i finally know how much she had endure my attitude from the past till now. . now i know she can't take it le. . its over for me. . mei if u din told me all this i think i won have the chance to know about it and change for it. . now i think back i also think that i am really a fucker. . and worst then that. . joce i am really sorry i had hurt u too much le i know is enough for u le. . from the past till now all the time being doing wrong things de its not you its me. . i get it now le, maybe i still duno how to think and learn when things did not happen now it finally happen and wei told me so many things. now i finally know how much u had endure me from the past till now. . i had never think of i learn new things and i had a worst hurt i ever had. i had to learn how to cherish and change my attitude le its enough for myself i dun wan to be like this anymore. . it really hurt i dun dare to go any further relationship anymore le just one time is enough. . i think it won recover le i duno how long i could take this. . something had gone forever from my side its really hurt cause i can't forget the things/person that had lost forever from my side. . guys i am sorry that i din take anyone of your words into my heart now i finally know wad kind of person i am in your heart. .

2010-01-16T07:48:00.000-08:00

Sry my friends so long no post le. . i have been working these days at metro paragon. . if your are free can go there find mi and chat^^ at second floor lady shoe department. . if i am free i will call your up i wan haha. . wei also working down there with mi heng she work with mi if not i will bored to death lols. . MY REAL GOOD MEI MUHAHA. . although she is my mei but some ppl think i treat her just like gf. . but she is really not my gf just my real good mei. . i am sad wad can i do? please help mi god. . i dun 1 to be like this everyday i wan to have a good life i dun 1 to think so much pls help mi i pray. . sigh

2009-12-23T12:27:00.000-08:00

Arlow's!!

today went to paragon with isaac and my gf he went to check up to approve he can go australia for studys^^ he's going for another check up on the next tuesday. . after that we went to holland to have some dim sum. . it was nice and it is very thankfull to him that he bring mi and my gf to go out have fun. . this is the kind of friend that i really wish to have it all the times being. . hmm ya thats all gtg cya all take good care. .

2009-12-16T08:47:00.001-08:00

Hi my friends i am back to singapore yesterday i had went to korean. .

wish i could nv come back, just only come back had so many things happen to mi i really had enough le i could feel i am gonna to lose something soon. . and i had already prepare to it i am waiting for it to happen. .

JUST WAIT AND SEE U WILL GET IT FROM ME. . ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

2009-12-15T04:22:00.000-08:00

on e way back to sg?

Post by his girlfriend

2009-12-14T04:21:00.000-08:00

last day in kOrea!

pOst by his girlfriend

2009-12-13T07:54:00.000-08:00

third day in kOrea!!! :D

pOst by his Girlfriend

2009-12-12T01:39:00.000-08:00

Second day at kOrea ! :D

pOst by his Girlfriend

2009-12-10T06:50:00.000-08:00

cOme to pOst again ..

ii am on e way tO kOrea!!!!!

pOst by: hiiS girlfriend

2009-12-07T19:57:00.000-08:00

lala .. pOstinG TIME!?!

hmm .. what tO pOst lei? Ytd wake uP tO smOke then Open dOor fOr stead.. she brOught me a pant as Our 5th mths anniversary de .. :D .. then she Use cOm .. then wanGjian gO dOwn 850 first .. ii went baCk to sleep aGain .. cUz i too tired .. ._.

then wake up arOund 10++pm .. Use cOme with stead.. wheN tO buy fOods at 848 then walK to stead's hOuse .. then we eat tOgether.. waited for her tO gO sleep .. walk to 850 after my favourite TV shOw.. gO meet my friends & tOn tOgether ..

Reached hOme arOund 7 to 8 am plUs .. theN Use com until stead cOme find me ..

i am tired le! niites eveRyOne .. :D

by chOu giRlfriend .. :)

2009-12-02T08:47:00.001-08:00

HIES all i am here to post again so sorry i had not been posting anythings. . cause i dun feel like posting hahas. .

i and my gf today just patch up. . broke off around 1 - 2 days i can see and feel how much she had love mi. . and i really love her too. . but just i think i am not a good boyfriend i know she can find a better guy other den mi de. . sigh i had hurt her is more den enough le i dun 1 to hurt her anymore i really duno wad to do sigh. . guy love u all okays meet up soon. . takecares.

2009-11-12T01:38:00.000-08:00

second day at kOrea!

pOst by: hiS girlfriend

2009-11-01T20:54:00.000-08:00

Just came back from chambers. . today not so early meeting my gf although she having off. Cause she having buskin means she went out to sell balloons hope she can earn lots of money todays hahas. . really miss her. Just now though of sending her to mrt station but she said she waiting her boss to come fetch her. . sigh. .

2009-10-30T14:29:00.000-07:00

Ytd afternoon haven sleep till from the privous day i was very tired but i still went fishing with my friends. . although its boring but when really caugh a fish all of us was so excited hahas. . while we were camping we went looking for lobster! -.-''' look here and there. . awhile later ah wei rot suddenly ring ring and ring and no 1 cares about it. . den miao hui told us den ah wei jiu go pull up. . he use quite alot of str and times to pull up the fish which is 3kg heavy muhahaha we were so excited. Den i told them i bring up my house i call my grandmother cook for them, they really came up and eat hehes. . hmm if my life is like this all the times i will be very thankfull. . just i feel i am really lonely hmm i dunoe how to say bah i end it here le cya. .

2009-10-29T17:25:00.001-07:00

Just came back from 85O not long ago. . hmm my life was so boring, always had nth to do. just ton downstair my house everyday. Doing wad? lols play true or dare, talk, play poker and sleep? Felt so sux! wad to do? i also dunoe just finding things to do not just sitting around like this. . i was finding a part time job but i had been finding long ago le, just that i found 1 job. the job is just like last time i working at TOT( Taste Of Thailand ). the job is Sakae sushi, there was too strick and need to learn their things fast so i worked two days jiu run away le LOL!!

ANYONE HABB JOB PLS INTRO ME!!! THX URGENTLY( IM POK )

2009-10-23T07:06:00.002-07:00

postin piC~~~~ :D

2009-10-20T19:55:00.000-07:00

Two days ago i wented home. . hmm feel home is the best place i have hahas. . thanks all my friends gan for so caring. . when they keep ask mi go home say alot of things to mi actually i know wad is right wad is wrong but i just can't control myself on the time being. . the anger was at the top of my head but i really feel like crying. . thanks my buddys bro and gans. . LOVE YOUR LOTS:)

2009-10-08T14:31:00.000-07:00

( 9/10/09 )
**Chrislin n Tse wei**
Today after finish meeting gf i went to meet my precious **MEIS** lols and junior and ton with them. . hmms missing the life around 2year+ ago. . At that time everytime midnight there will always alot of ppl ton together, but now 2years past le study de go study work de go working, getting lesser and lesser ppl to ton wif le. . if times can go back i really wish to go back to those days. .

hmms hope i and her can last long^^ but we use to quarrel at times. . i know she give in alot le but i also give in alot le i dunoe wad really i can do to stop the quarrel. . ppl have tried to help mi but still can't stop it. . i think no 1 can help mi bah except myself i will try my best be LOVE U LOTS BABY!! gees

To be Continue lalalals

2009-09-01T12:05:00.000-07:00

y0ue this idiot ! tell y0ue post blog ; y0ue post a short wann. .close y0ur blog larhs. .hahahs. .
well ; iim kind hearted t help this bangala update his damn blog. .shoo lonq din update. .always sae " idk wadd t post ; blahblahbah ". .lazy say lazy ; dont excuse ! last time keep on updatinq ; now lehs ? hundred days 1 time ==! shit y0ue unds ! hahahahahahahs. .

he this few days din do anythinq much. .

meet girlfriend
850 ? *idk
maple ?
slp
eat

LOLS !!

lastlonq w y0ur gurlfriend horhs. .pariah ! byeeee (:

weiis ♥

2009-09-01T11:51:00.000-07:00

YOYO all sry long time no write things le sry>.< just i finally get her back not long ago about 2months ago bah hahas i was really happy lols. . but i and her is just like chao jia all the time. . hope this will get better bah. . miss u all^^

2009-07-07T20:58:00.000-07:00

hmm baby i can't totally feel your love to mi sigh. . . i really dunoe wad to do le love u lots. . . :(

2009-06-21T00:54:00.000-07:00

i know. . . from the start till now is all because of mi. . . but i din run away or wad i still give u all my heart. i know its because of mi den u become like this i really guilty i am sorry. i dunoe how i could win your heart back? i wan e most is trust and no lies to each others.

wad i wan to tell u is he is not truly to u. . . if he really love u, if his friend ask for your number i am for sure he won help him ask u. u wan to trust anot i dunoe cause i am guys. . .

gals dunoe wad guys is thinking and guys dunoe wad gals is thinking hmm ya this is all i wanted to say. . . take care all i will jiayou e.

2009-06-16T12:37:00.000-07:00

YO! long time no pOst le oh sorry my friends^^ now i am back to pOst something hahas. . .
very long neber see sOme of my friends miss dem alot:( very long never go Out for rOunding too le miss e days alot. . . My birthday just over few days ago, earlier though no one help mi celebrate my day but it was not like that oh haha she and my friends jas, matt, bibi, and david when to watch movie with mi earlier though matt they all won go but they go oh haha. i was very happy that she celebrate with mi... hmm although that is alot le but i want e is not that all, i want e is the trust to mi from her. hOpe she would find out my goOd? hOpe she would accept mi one last time let mi have e chance to show u my love to u? everytime i will think she is coming back to mi but that is just only in my dream sigh. thats all i wanted to say ba maybe i will not post for a period of time cause i din have e time to post cause i dun have com:( TAKE CARE ALL!!! My wish in my birthday is nothing but hopping u would come back to mi one day^_^ hey i love u gal! gees.

2009-05-27T21:56:00.001-07:00

sorry friends>< when i am free i will post again i not free this few weeks.
take care all^^

2009-05-17T01:33:00.000-07:00

hmm this few weeks i kept when rounding with friend. although its fun but its very boring after sometime. i went to all e rounding is because i at home i can't fall asleep and i will keep on thinking and thinking. Cause i dun wan to think so much that y i went to all this rounding hahas. go have fun with friend make till myself very tired le jiu go home sleep so i won think so much. Hais e days is coming counting down with *3 days* its a important day to mi if i losT means its a fate le. but no matter wad i will still love her with wad i can, take care her with my heart. All my gans i know your are good to mi but pls dun stop mi from all this i am serious about it de i really love her alot and will jia you de so i just need your support on mi!

2009-05-13T12:30:00.000-07:00

Ytd morning can't wake up in time to go meet her again sigh this is not the first time le. When i wake up i meet friends go eatall this and my friend cw say meet mi and wang jian go interview work at 1.30 so i call him at 1 and he din pick up my phone! i called and called till 3.20 den we meet. i called my father come and fetch us go hehes. when we reach there the cpf building i can't go up!! cause i forget to bring my ic again!!! but heng the security kind heart let mi go in. we go up and fill up the form and hear e person talk to us about the thing after finish i see the time is 4.30 den i say OMG i dun have enough time to go back meet her le so i took taxi go back heng i reach yishun just in time to meet her hahas... when meet dao her le i jiu all e way pei her till night. while i was at her house i watch tv till i fall asleep lols i keep sleep and wake sleep and wake. till 8+pm i bring xiao bai go down walk hahas. when i came back she go bath and i continue sleep lols. when she bath finish i tell her i going home and eat and i said i wait for him come den i go den she say go now! sian diao lo. when i reach home i eat finish le she msg mi ask mi i coming le ma and i told her i wanted to sleep le and i go sleep. while i was asleep my friends called mi go loyang tua bei gong they say wan go there see cause we maybe work at there den i say anything ba after awhile they called mi go down we jiu go le. after we reach there i go bai bai hahas need pay $2 nor i going POK le!!! O NO! but never mind ba long long bai bai once.after that we go changi and geylang for rounding half way true my friend car brake spoile LMAO! and he cannot brake omg scare dao my friend SL. because of his car spoile we jiu come back le till now 3.40am i just reach cw house tml moring still need to meet her i cannot over slept again i must meet dao her haha. hope she nv angry that i say i wan sleep but till e end i go loyang if i wan to bluff her i won pick up her call when i was at loyang and she ask mi where mi i still tell her where mi.

U ARE ALWAYS IN MY MIND! I LOVE YOU LOTS!

2009-05-12T18:14:00.000-07:00

hmmms 7 more days to go the answer will out soon i won't be so fan le ba i think. i will love her with all my heart no matter wad happen. but i can predict that answer out already ba. is it good to me or bad to me i duno i won say wad i had predict but your will know it on 20th may i will let all my good friends and brothers to know! ♥ iloveyou ♥

2009-05-12T00:58:00.000-07:00

我为了你我以经放下一切的去爱你了.
我希望能够回到从前的日子.
希望你能够给我最后一次的机会.
我爱你.
♥黄丽珍♥

2009-05-12T00:00:00.000-07:00

2009-05-11T22:39:00.000-07:00

the day before yesterday we went to rounding again and driver was sankar again hahas. but actually i never think of going with them cause i dun even have the mood to go out. but my friends all keep say dun think too much go out and have fun ba. den i think for awhile jiu go with them le but while i was on the lorry with them i sit one side and emo never talk with friends all but pearlina sit down there pei me chat all this. Pearlina thanks for ann wei wo^^ this few days i just no mood to go anywhere just to stay at home but my friends all keep ask me to go out. hmm the sat and sun i jio her out for movie i early already know she sure dun one de but i keep have a high hope that she will go with me but in the end i have fail she din even reply my msg she dun one see at least tell me ma but dun have hais. i also can predict that i have lost her le. i have done so much but also no use she can't feel anything at all no one can help me but only myself. think now i also can't help myself le ba. AIYA! dun one write liao feel very fuck up! sorry all take care love u all of cause not forgeting of you ilujnlz...

2009-05-09T23:28:00.000-07:00

my good brother:)

2009-05-09T22:48:00.000-07:00

Ytd after i woke up i went to pei zhuang house to update my blog after awhile jian wei called mi he asked mi weather want to go out for rounding ma and i told him i call him back later:) so i continue with my blog. after i finish i jiu went to eat with pei zhuang after eating and i called jian wei asked him where they all. after awhile they all come fetch mi and pei zhuang in the lorry there are alot of people haha. (Sankar driver, jian wei, feng rong, bibi, fu ren, alex, wang jian, chong wei, mi, pei zhuang and more hahas. we went till 8plas 9 and some of them need to go home and we sent them home. But never mind after that we find other people to go rounding with us and we found quite alot people hahas.(Sankar driver, chong wei, wang jian, feng rong, soon lee, ling feng, ah wei, pearlina, chrislin, yaqi, sheena, jasmine and pei zhuang.) We went to monut faber and kentridge park and slack. it was so far and so high while we were at mount faber we were taking photo all this there and talk alot funny things we were just laughing none stop but i was just not so happy ba. after awhile Sankar said he wanted to go kentridge park and play true or dare and we jiu go le after we reach there we jiu start playing le all the guys was playing execpt lin feng, ah wei and all e gals was not playin. and we play and play jiu becoming more and more funny hahas, after awhile the sky becoming more and more orange and the tunder all starting to come and we quickly jiu go le. when we were half way back to yishun it rain heavily and i was totally wet the rain shoot at my face was so painfull:( but never mind ba when we reach yishun we go 925 eat after eating i jiu go home le. hmm i think today also no need to watch movie le ytd already miss le i think today also miss ba her sim card no money never reply mi. but i think she also dun wan to go watch de ba hais i really miss her so much she say y i like tie her so tide i tie her so tide is because i really care about her and i love her!!! i really dunoe wad she was thinking about i can't predict anything from her mind. . . dear jocelyn wad u r really thinking of. . . without u i feel my life is meaningless.

2009-05-09T00:20:00.000-07:00

Ytd night when she came back le i went to meet her, after that we go to 848 and buy things to eat. when she came back from the birthday her attiude towards mi have totally change. . . i dunOe wad had happen but i am just very sad. And after that she say he going her house den i jiu go up together nor she say she ask him to teach her how to make road runner ballon. after awhile her father very angry ask us to go home and we jiu go home le, and i ask her today where is she going and she said he never go out she wanted to stay at home. but just now i wanted to go pei her but she say she going out le i was just very sad hais. she is e first person that i have done so much for a person i have never play her feeling before all e feeling i gave to her is all truly from my heart. Because of mi she become like this is mi hai le her i dun one she become more and more worst if dun have mi in e first place she won become like this le i really feel very guilty.

he said he wanted to give up HA his words will never be real i dun believe his words at all my friends are all right he keep change his mind he coulden't stay long on it. arhhhhhhhhh!

I LOVE U FOREVER JOCELYN NG LI ZHEN! NO CHANGING OF MY MIND

2009-05-08T07:34:00.000-07:00

this few days i kept on wake up in e early and meet her and sent her to mrt station but tOday mOrning is e earliest day i have to wake up hahas. . . but i din sleep cause i scare if sleep lerhs i can't wake up in time. Anyway my friends ask mi out fOr fishin sO i went fishin with them. I was just dun have e mood to fish i also dunoe why maybe i just feel like fishin is becoming more and more meaningless and very bored. tOday afternoOn she tOld mi smth when i heard that i was just like sO sad and it make mi totally no moOd tOday haiis. . . she went to a friends birthday today she said she won't come back late but now already 10+ le she still not back yet hmm so worried about her. Miss her lots too. . . take care all friends

2009-05-07T00:44:00.000-07:00

hmm ytd i saw his blog at her house. . . Wad he said in e blog and wad he told mi in the msg is totally not e same i dunoe which i should trust . . . or both i should not trust at? hmm last friday she went to genting just only for three days but in those three days im missing her every second and every moment. . .everyday dunoe wad she was doing all this very worried about her. . . but just hope she is happy. . . i really regret leaving her last time , didnt know how to cherish her . . . but i hope she will give me a last chance cause my life without her is meaningless. . . this coming saturday or sunday i have already ask her out for movie hope she can make time for me. . . i'll end here le.

thanks my friends for reading my blog it have been quite a long time didnt update le . . .
LOve all my friends and of cause not forgeting her!

2009-04-30T07:43:00.000-07:00

Last sunday i and some of my friends went to sentosa i asked her to go too but she can't make it cause she have a appointment going on at sunday afternoon so nvm ba. . . Before we go sentosa we at vivo eating carl's junior their food i really good but it was abit too expensive le i think but i think is worth it ba hahas. . . after eating we went to sentosa while we were waiting the sentosa mrt it suddenly rain so heavily and i like just sian diao -.- lols but after we reach there awhile later the rain stop hahas. i was just like so happy but i still din go play with my friends cause it still quite wet. . . after awhile den i go play with them is just that very cold nor>.< we played till 7 plas jiu go home le and i went to friends house to ton. . . the next day i wake up i feel very week cause i was sick badly till now i am still not ok with it sigh. . . * Y sometime people sick so much people so care about e person and y i sick le no one care about mi!* hais. . . take care ba all sorry i quite a few days never post aniting le. . .

2009-04-25T08:58:00.000-07:00

Today i went to my friends birthday celebrations
there was alot of people that i know
and alot of people i dunoe. I was quite happy that
there are so many people there^^ .
Though she would go together with mi but she diden't
i was quite sadded but nvm ba its ok
cause i meeting her in awhile time. She asked mi to help
her buy food and i straight lent money
from friend and buy e food give her eat hahas. After
awhile i meet dao her le we have chat
alot and keep laughing i was very happy too. after awhile
she ask mi *if i stead with him still can
be friend?* from the time she said that my face totally change
i feeling like crying but i din dare to cry infront
of her and so i quitely sit one side and cry think she din know
about it ba. From that onwards i finally know
wad i had lost i really hard to get it back to my side again. . .

Hmms. . . wonder how was matthew inside his ns. . . miss him. In e past still have him to ton with but now less le him ton with us and we have lesser fun le and now we never ton le dun say ton not even went to fishing le. sigh. . . Many people from my side are getting lesser and lesser le wad am i going to do with it. . . anyone please help mi hais. . .

2009-04-24T09:21:00.000-07:00

On 22 april that day itself i from e morning till evening i was all long
at home folding some straw hearts for her and it was the first time i do all
this things to a person.

I just fold n fold n fold din eat or drink till i have fold finish all those straw
hearts. When i finish folding i was so giddy and tired but never mind to mi.
so i went msg her but she was sick at home din reply mi:( though i can pass it to her at that night. In e end i bring back home all e hearts and i keep till today 24 april 09 i finally can pass it to her all e hearts i have done. And i was so happy:) hahas. Hope she will feel that all e love i gave to her i truely from my hearts. . . take care all i finish with it!

2009-04-24T09:03:00.000-07:00

Hello all i back again^^. . .

april 23 09

She was sick and in e morning same thing i do i sent her to kahtib mrt station.
I was so worried about her but just i duno how to 安慰 her
so i justed keep quited at there see her go. . .
after that and i started to sms her she din reply and after awhile she replied
* next time den talk i very tired *
and i was just sadded sigh. . .

at night i was suppose to accompany her to bring her dog down and walk and
she din reply mi on that night and i waited near her house there and wait for her reply so i could reach her house asap but in e end she still never replied my msg i was so sadded. hais

2009-04-20T01:39:00.000-07:00

Today 20 of april 2009, when i went to meet her in e morning, i saw him waiting her too and i was very sad when i saw him. When she came down she was very close to him and i was very jealous with it but i just take it as i din saw anything ba... When she ask mi why i so emo and i said i was thinking about something. When i heard she said he made something for her to eat in e morning and she was very happy with it but think she dunoe how i was feeling with it ba. But never mind its already over. I will try my very best to win her back to mi e... hope one day she will know that the person really love her and waiting her is who:)